Crazy Breezy

such a beautiful smile

goes along those playful eyes

such a gentle kiss

I forget the world in bliss

such stupid childishness

are you sixteen or are you nuts

such strong hands 

led me towards ecstatic land

those cute twitchy lips

tense making insipid rice n eggs

such a whirlwind in my desert

moves on, knees buckle in thirst

Spring

New blooms fragarant
color, touch my soul while

spirit floats achild.

Roaring deafening waves

beckon  being to depths unknwown,

forgetting blue, smile.

Scorching midday sun

burns filth leaving roots and

flowers to miles

Such is eve

spent   in presence of mate

right, fully wild

Love You Hari

I'm lost at sea without an oar,
A bird without wings unable to soar,
You were my anchor, you were my wind,
Alas these words you cannot not hear.

I've looked into those eyes plenty,
So childlike and full of life,
Where do I see my mirror now?
How can I show all my love?

I've loved your arms, so powerful, strong
Fixed every leak, solved every puzzle,
Why did they tie your final knot?
Would give my all to hug you just once.

Your body dissappears in dust,
Your lessons and love never forgotten,
In my heart your light shines on
Until I see those eyes again.

Hope

The clock ticks away, surely, slowly

Seconds speed past lonely dark,

Minutes tag behind a hopeful mind,

Leaving hour to crawl  murky shores.

Waves run wild on rough seas

Against dark windy clouded eve,

Like hope drowning at every ebb,

Awaiting next roaring flowing glee..

So mind searches fleeting revelry

Amidst fake laughs n love with expiry.

Each footprint attempts  immortal stay,

Always failing against sure erasure..

Wishful thoughts beg happy ending

Knowing full well quirky futures.

Deafening roar dies every second

Only to resurge waves of hope,

Noise, peace, chaos or beauty,

Everything, good or bad, always ends..

So mind searches fleeting revelry

Amidst fake laughs n love with expiry.

Misc

Lonely

Lonely me, shore without sea
Lonely me, honey without bee
Lonely me, morning without dew
Lonely me, lonely for you.

Love you

Earth to sun,
plenty fun..
Souls in twist,
minds a bliss;
Horrible mood..
ash n soot,
Rain or shine
still mine?

Fling
Rainbow lasts longer
Viewed right angle,
Birds fly stronger
Thunderstorms, untangled..
Sweet as honey
Exciting, new,
Dies, moth to flame
Others, few.

Ooty Track

We sat on the track
On a cold wet day ..
Both nervous and excited,
Oblivious to others

Your face so cute,
Big glasses stub nose,
Kissable lips so rose,
strong hands and pose.

I felt butterflies..
And heat and heart!!
Your touch sent shivers!
Longing for more spark.

I felt wanted, needed!
Needed to fulfil you..
Only saw your face,
Your voice the only solace.

"I want to be with you"
Was all it took,
In a leap of faith,
I fall for the hook.

My hand in yours,
Spreading warmth and need.
I fall head over heels..
Our tracks merge, forming seed.

Seed for years fruitful,
Yet many times hurtful.
Given a choice today,
Again, I fall head over heels

The answer??

If I throw these out,
These painful images
Replace with fun
Joyous happy moments
Maybe theres peace

If I get past the end,
Shocking, lacking,
A life of dignity
Ending in such chaos
Maybe theres solace

If I believe in heaven
Fit for your compassion
Where lies the line
Between bliss and hell
Maybe then I'll survive

If I know the outcome
Of a life well spent
Feeling, being, loving,
Befitting the end?
Maybe I learn to live

For the clock's ticking
No man can control
Live love laugh
Before final rote
Maybe this is the secret

Worst Half

Who am I

Toubled me

Cry and sigh

Lacking glee

Was I here

Day before, more

Lost in snores

Lost the shore

Look at self,

Myriad mirrors

Most show hell

Many no jurors

Feels like me

Myself, expose

Relly, thee?

Curtains close

Better hidden

Shoved under rug

Monsters.. within

Darkness above

Dark in me

Tuck and hide

Worse than thee

No soul inside

Last Breath

To talk once more
To say I love you
To look in your eyes
Tell you its all good

What I would give
For a few precious seconds
What I would give
To turn back time

Standing outside
Not holding your hand
Praying inside
Not watching your pain

I am so sorry
To let you die
I am so sorry
To make you cry

Know that I love
Know that Im well
Know that your awesome
Know that your swell

Your voice my guide
Your breath my tide
Your courage my pride
Your love my hide

Now where do I go
When things dont flow
Where do I run
From hatred and shun

I love you amma
I need you bad
This life without
Is too hard to bear

I need you so bad
So miserable and sad
Please come back once more
Tell me your ok, I implore

Amma

Sugar on birthdays
Hugs on sad
Love on Sundays
Advice on bad
Heart to heart
Worlds apart
Need your grace
Need an embrace
Come back once
Save me again
Hold my hand
Tears them behold
Need your wise
Love and nice
Stuck in last
Unglue my past
Learn to live
Love and give
Cant without you
What should I do
Save me amma
Miss you bad
Your story lives
Soul never sad
You live on
Memories ahold
Your spirit eternal
Your soul just gold
Save me amma
One more time
Cries not heard
Bells dont chime
Miss you amma
Cant let go
Bless us always
Be happy anew

Fear

After all mess,

Added pressure, stress..

Of broken bonds

And hurtful rants,

With respect lacking, 

Contempt packing..

Many weekends grim,

Others glee-less, slim.

Couple in love

Years ago, now in hate.

Inseperable yet suffocating,

Curse choices, curse fate.

Choking with despise,

Nagging, end so near

Yearning for freedom

Yet bridled with fear.

Fear of lonely, wretched,

Dark, friendless void..

Shackles too strong

Afraid of breaking dawn..

Fear broken promises,

Fruitless fancy, and trolls

Fear envelopes all hope,

Fear survives, strangling soul.